hapeeh 15th bdae stoOge.!

sorry i couldnt be there to celebrate with u.. and im sorry ur pressies gonna be a bit belated...

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hapeeh bdae again !

xXxmN

hapeeh 16th bdae tim.!

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xXxmN

HAPEEH 15TH BDAE ROYCEE BOYCEE SMELLY BUM BUM JULIENNE HEO LEGASPI.!

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ur an old woman now. so old.

hapeeh bdae

xXxmN

i caught up with the girl recently. i could see her sorrow, i shared her pain. she kept reassuring herself she was fine, but deep down, she knew she wasnt. i could see how she was lifeless, lying on the sofa, crying quietly to herself. as if she didnt want me see her crying. i realised i couldn't do anything to help her, and asked if she wanted me to leave. she couldnt decide, but i insisted on leaving.

she was alone, once again.

she couldnt drown her sorrows in anything, besides the tissues placed near the sofa. i dont know what shes thinking about. i dont know who shes thinking about. all i know is ;

she realised noone came to visit her that day. she spent the entire day looking in the mirror. looking at her reflection.

what did she see?

she saw nothing

©mNo6___'

she wants to feel loved. she wants to know she'll always have someone who will catch her when she falls, make her laugh when she's about to cry. she wants to speak her mind, but in the past, everytime she went to say something, the world turned against her. she wants to quit bad habits, but knows she can't, despite all the trouble she's caused because of it.

she doesn't know who to turn to in this evil world. she feels used and is abused in more ways than one.

she is nothing. she is a nobody.

she wants to turn back time, and undo every moment when she's done something wrong, but she has to face reality, and accept she can't change what's already happend.

she feels like shes second best in all her friendships. she can't accept who she is. she can't accept the fact that other people don't like who she is.

she's lost the one person she could tell everything to. he disappeared, never to be heard or seen again.

she dreams she's six feet under every night, but she doesn't know if it's a dream, or a nightmare.

she realises she's not herself, but she didn't know who she was to begin with. she lost herself in her lies and stories.

shes gone.

©mNo6___'

TWITCHYY I LOVE YOU, YOU GOT TO ME DEEP. Lmao APRIL FOOLS have fun today. Please don't hurt me

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Hope you send flowers to my funeral

Jane

[edited due to readers disgression]

24.03.06

was my bdae. walked into school.. everyone singing happy bdae to me.. felt special x]. music test. music class sang happy bdae to me x] english.. boring. sport. got to relax ^^.. went to get changed.. ppl in the change rooms sang happy bdae.. felt special.

went to sleep early on thurs.. and woke up about 7 times coz my phone started to moo at me.. then "jane" calls me at like.. 12.48 ish to say happy bdae.. on the phone til like.. 1.30 ><"

got a phone call from vu.. ahaha. he remembered x]

25.03.06

my bdae outing. woke up early. i was excited. my dad decided to clean the house at 9.. and had to be at station at 9.15.. left the house at that time.. gees. then.. got to city.. walked to crepe store.. didnt open.. stoopid ppl.. i was like. weronkia.. knock on the window.. and she did ><". went coco's. took our 5 dreamiies. man. thats chick retarded. spelt our names wrong. fudge u woman. then went capitol. machine ate our money. then crepe store.. man. they were the best things i think ive ever eaten. they looked that good. went to galaxy to play pool. no tables were free.. so hue and erin decided to play air hockey. then jendo came.! i was soo happy.. i sound gay.. but i was so happy to see her.. i was like.. can u kick someone off the table.. lo.. we finally got a pool table.. and like.. it was near the fricken wall.. so reatarded. jendo and i versed erin and hue.. we were so close to finishing.. and we couldnt sink the black ball.. and like.. hue and erin caught up to us.. and won. then walked to town hall said goodbye to jendo =[ then waited 10 mins for the train. and err. yeahs. got to lidcombe.. my dad was so late.. so i called him.. and he started yelling at me ><" then got home.. "party". whatta crappy thing. then royce came.! then yeah. went back to lidcombe ><" and got pressies from thuyen and au.. au.. hes in melb atm.. helping with comm games.. sent me a pressie.. he remembered my bdae too.! and thuyen... gave me a crocodile hand puppet.. and it squeaks.! then royce gave me a pillow and a teddy bear x].. and before that.. jendo gave me a bracelet and some cream stuff. x] then yeah. cuong bought 3 boxes of ice cream. royce shattered him. she didnt eat any.. tut tut tut. then au called to say happy bdae.. how nice.! then yeah. i went home after royce did.

26.03.06

joannes bdae party. got there at like 10.30 ish. joannes mum wasnt home.. and my mum wasnt gonna let me stay.. i was like.. whatever.. then wendy and pauleen came. then more ppl came. then we started playing pool. then pizza. then more pool. ended up playing pool for like 6 hours. ppl were karaoke-ing. and yeahs. left at like 5 something. and yeahs.

[sheng, becca + "jane" didnt go to my bdae outing. shattered. and i had a bad bdae. started crying for some unked reason. only i know why. and sheng doesnt get his story. so nerr. u have to make it up to me xp.. and i redyed my hair.. u cant even see it that well. whatta waste of time and effort ><"]

next year better be better than the bdae i had this year. i swear. next year. ima gonna err. do something to make it better.

xXxugLiie

Hello there dear, Today is your brithday, isn't it NICE? at about 12.48 i called you last night and was there when you officially turned 15 at 1in the morning and talked to you and gave you the persent of sleep. Did you enjoy it dear? well now that you are well rested, How was you first day as a 15 year old? Did your friends forget as you predicted or did they remember as i predicted? owell its the end of the school day and i had a test, no make that 2 tests. how annoying, anywho welcome to the world of the 15 year olds. The harsh cruel world where you and your friends will be put through trials and great things will happen. Have fun and bring me drinks on my brithday and yes i know i'm old dear but who cares. see you whenever.

Greetings and Ice cream

[edited my ugLiie. sorry jane. dont like ur spelling ><"]

Jane

Hello my name is Jane, i'm blogging this for a friend (twitchy, if you want to get her for it) =P Aiya, Life is so boring, and it will always be. And NO sex won't change my view. "sighs" The people who own this blog : you should put a NICE header on it, it'll attract more people kk. Anyways i would like to meet all of you one day, and kiddo don't hurt "her" too much, when you see her walking around kk, be nice and tease her till she goes to a mental hospital. They're a nicer place to visit. Oh my will you look at that, my whiskey is runing low. soo i guess i'll be going soo byes and see you round dear.

Fancy dress and hateful smiles

Jane

[edited by ugLiie. dont like ur spelling]

ima just gonna update on all my shout outs ><" my life has nothing interesting to blog about.

maneL ; in most of my classes again this year.. yayy. classes are actually fun coz im always sitting next to this one. =]

hue ; im in 3 of ur classes this year ><" least u got the good teachers. my stoOge-y friend. helped me wreck my phone =]

sheng ; my daddy.! =D u getting so old now. what am i spose to do with u now ?? xp

jendo` ; this girl.. gangster xp. havent seen u in about a year nows. missing u heaps.

lilLiie ; i screwed up with this relationship before.. im sorry bubbs. this is what happens with long distance relationships. if only we were closer together..

aLvin ; not loving u so much anymore. u bum bum. call urself my twin.. tut tut tut xp u know i love u =]

linda ; girl. i know im never gonna starve if im stuck on an island with u. u can cook ^^ ahaha. still remember my last day in melbourne where it took u awhile to figure out we were all quoting from "happy gilmore" ur so funny linda.

vu ; ur too old for me.. ><" but ur funny anyway xp. u let me win when i played my first game of pool =]

tN ; where do i start with u. err. we met when i was in kindy at kims house. ur were in year 1. and we went out to double bay for ice cream ^^. then yeah. known u ever since.

doOfus ; this one. so funny. she tells a story and full cracks up laughing before finishing it. whatta funny bum.

royce ; smelLy.! u such a bimbo. cant lock the locker properley. lmfao. u make me be mean to u xp

ann ; the third person in me and kims "crew". so funny. whatta sis. always know how to cheer me up. love u =]

raging monkeys ; u ppl need a new name. "raging hormones" lmao. ahh. lunch aint the same without u ppl.

sxc steph ; my counsellor. i can always talk to u about anything.. and u always wanting to beat up ppl for me =].

anyone ive forgotten ; im sorry. i love u too. just tell me if ive forgotten u.. im sorry.! and ill mention u =]

thank u to all ppl mentioned for putting up with me in the past. hope to annoy u more in the future x]
xXxugLiie